Finally, I am at peace again. Having completed all work recently set before me very rapidly, I no longer worry that the rejection of the elite will condemn me to mediocrity. Quite the contrary; it is the same difference that makes me unappealing to the elite that empowers me.
Because my ideas arise unconsciously, I can generate as many as I want; they do not inhibit conscious thought. Because I view the constraints of reality as arbitrary, I can both mold the ideas to fit reality… and mold reality to fit my ideas. Because I manage my time effectively and complete tasks quickly, I can pursue as many ideas as I want and study as many things as I wish. And because I am quite intelligent, hard working, and a gifted writer, I can turn these ideas into papers extremely rapidly (now in only a few hours), particularly if I am able to forego the fluff that is included in most publications… but only if I see the need.
Because my approach is universal, I can carry ideas from field to field, rapidly turning incremental advances in one field into revolutionary ideas in another.
Because I lack the training that the elite would provide me, I am far more open to alternate possibilities that are erased by entrenched knowledge. Because I have yet to meet a significant educational challenge, I am free to pursue whatever interests me after completing my tasks.
Because I was shunned all my life by society, I became self-sufficient. Because I am self-sufficient, I am not constrained by the views of others, or the fads of a “community”, scientific or otherwise. Because I adhere strongly to a well-developed code of morality and integrity, I need not doubt my own motives when confronted by adversity.
Because logic dominates my mind, I see patterns in the most chaotic of systems, including human behavior on all scales. Because I studied computer science, I know precisely how to optimize a system; how to remodel or deform the network of actions that make up the system while leaving the underlying structure untouched – how to reform society without damaging it. Because I was a programming prodigy and have a significant degree of mathematical talent, I can simulate nearly any system I choose, in software or in theory, to evaluate probable outcomes of each decision I may make.
Because I hold no particular love for the status quo, I am free to change it.
And because the elite has cast me out, they have lost the ability to influence my path. By refusing to walk beside me, they have chosen to merely follow.
My self-confidence is back. And I will no longer allow unjustified rejection, or anything short of a display of superior competence, to undermine it.